21.03.2012

today was the day of releasing SPM result

i didn't sleep much the day before.

i only got into my sleep around 3am ++

umm~

then starts to woke up around 6am++

and looking onto the ceiling for almost an hour plus

before sleeping back.

insomnia had been following me since few days before.

i got my dark eye circle blaken.

=(

the SPM result is known around 12noon in school.

i was the first to get my result from those having spbt problems.

once i get my result,

i covered it and just ran to the staircase there before seeing it.

once i sees it,

i feels very very very disappointed with myself.

i found a place to sit down,

and....

tears started to fall down.

i can't really control it =(

it just come pouring out from my eyes.

everything was just out of my expectation.

i thought my malay and english would at least get an A.

a solid A.

but,

the real fact was,

i got B+ for both.

is it means that my malay and english sucks?

means that i've failed my english teacher too...

sorry,

sorry to everyone.

i'm just too failed.

i should be studying whole day during SPM.

i shouldn't be playing or fooling around.

i should be serious.

sorry...

i feels very bad to disappoint my dad.

my dad, he had alots of expectation on me.

alot...

and i just failed to make my dad proud.

怀念

i miss those days in class,

every monday and tuesday when we have extra classes.

we used to chit chat and talk non-stop,

surrounding a table,

ignoring the teachers.

i miss all my friends in my class.

i miss my friends that talked with me when free.

i miss my friend that helped me during my english oral test.

i miss my friend that helped me in my modern mathematics.

i miss my friend that would share their problems with me.

i miss them so much.

i wish that i would go back the past.

i miss all the happiness in school.

=)

are we still friends?

do you still remember me?